Poems 1987-1992

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M the beginning, when I fiist noticed that I was part of ft» woild around me« I was eager to l^ara, challoige ideas, and tdl flie worid about my new visions.
Iwantedtobeamajestic bird, like aneaglesoaring into die i^.M^aodfise, admired andrespected My faflier warned me: Don't get too hi|h with your dreams; coining down is painful! Anyway, for a little wMe it was nice to dream. My young years passed quiddy and I settled for an earflily gray qKDTOw. I had to, because fliete were more spanows Uian eagles.
Lata; in nty prime time, I was looking after my old aUing parents. As I was loâng the best years of my life, in my fiustration I judged people around me bittafy. Mostly my family, for not helping me cany die burden. The words „good" and „bad", „right" and „wrong" and ttie fledng time, all weie angry weipxis for me to use against fiimL Ma^times,IwoadaedwhatistimB?WecieatBd Oiismeasuronent, day and night, one minute or 60 seconds, one year or4500 IMon years Does it make any sense... Tovább

Fülszöveg

M the beginning, when I fiist noticed that I was part of ft» woild around me« I was eager to l^ara, challoige ideas, and tdl flie worid about my new visions.
Iwantedtobeamajestic bird, like aneaglesoaring into die i^.M^aodfise, admired andrespected My faflier warned me: Don't get too hi|h with your dreams; coining down is painful! Anyway, for a little wMe it was nice to dream. My young years passed quiddy and I settled for an earflily gray qKDTOw. I had to, because fliete were more spanows Uian eagles.
Lata; in nty prime time, I was looking after my old aUing parents. As I was loâng the best years of my life, in my fiustration I judged people around me bittafy. Mostly my family, for not helping me cany die burden. The words „good" and „bad", „right" and „wrong" and ttie fledng time, all weie angry weipxis for me to use against fiimL Ma^times,IwoadaedwhatistimB?WecieatBd Oiismeasuronent, day and night, one minute or 60 seconds, one year or4500 IMon years Does it make any sense in the long ran? My mofli^ widiherundostanding, quietvoice—not lecturing me—said:
„You know, between good and bad, ri^t and vaong in the fleeing time, there are lots of ways to fulfill your life. It could even be a happy one." The years have passed, and so have my parents. I was glad to have been theare for them. I was alone now. I could do what I wanted I had a great time withmy new Mends. They helpednie a great deal. Opoiedmymindto adiffCTOit vieW. I found exciting new human feelings around me and ofliCT peq)le's knowledge and intoiests woe just what I needed after nQf sheltered Ufe. New dcpoiaioes, arts, opened my mind, like a mapcbox. I was justoverwhelmedl^music; like a sponge, I absôibed it fiiUy with joy. I felt, a new w«ld open iç for me at last I rononber this period as a lovely dream. But file war was creeping up on us. We could not ignore flie danger. ,Îiow to survive?" That was U» diallenge of everyday. The happaiings of
NOVEMBER 23,1987
Ann Szász
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This was a daik and painful time in my life and | | { j, i forgetting it, is a blessing. ^ | / ) '
Afterthewar,ItriedtofiDdnQrfamily andfriends. f* ^ i f Sbme gone far away, some never came bade. b / <Y Only tears and ashes woe left if f h
To build anew «dst^Keftiat was onevaybocty's mind. We had hope. We could try again. [!',',
But ttie new commumst regime had some other V
kleas about diis and slogans; ,,We are fiee now, | ! ' we work for a better future ba^ on the Marxist i i J Ideology", filled the papas and radios. Ii
Wewoeafraidtotalkormakeanyronaiksinthis new ,3®edam" or whatevaryou call it Having a fewfiiaidsin,Taisedsu^donofplottingagainst ! die regime.
The only thing left was to leave this ,JParadise" ] and I did it in a hurry. I escaped to Vienna, from tti^toCanada.
Thirty Eight years living in this country. I was free to w^ and worked hard, but with satisfactioa I onty regret fliat I didn't have the energy to leam better English. And through Engli^ literature to broadm my knowledge. I am afraid it is too late; the Old is closing in on mefast
I will exit the stage like an understudy who was by circumstances excluded from ttie lime light (My my dreams are IdOt for me. Vissza